i haven't made a public entry lately but eh...maybe i'll make this one public. sometimes we just gotta take the time to take a step back and look at our surroundings...see where we're standing and see the people around us. we all get so wrapped up into the motion of things sometimes that we forget what we're doing or why we're doing it... I had a conversation with someone about how "simple" things could be but people don't realize the simplicity sometimes...or don't want to. a lot of situations that we are put into, if we could just take one step back we could see things so much clearer. but most of us are blinded by the situation, so wrapped in what we want..so wrapped in what could be..that we don't realize what really is. i guess thats why its so easy to advise someone...yet so hard to follow your own advice. i know im guilty of that. a lot of us know what we should do, what we have to do...yet we convince ourselves otherwise..or wait...wait for something...despite already knowing deep down inside what the outcome will be. we're hopeful...we're molded by what we have been taught since our childhood...that if you try your hardest things will happen...that if you give ur all it'll happen...so when it doesnt happen..we don't want to quit...we believe that it will eventually happen if we keep going at it...we don't want to be "quitters"...we don't want to have to ever wonder "what if?" the simplicity of it all is..if it doesn't go your way despite your efforts then why waste your time on it? why not move on to other things that will be worth while..that will be more responsive..that will make u feel that all ur efforts are not for nothing and that you're not chasing a dying dream....shouldn't it be a "fair" balance? but i was told life isn't fair...and its just not that easy... letting go is the hardest thing sometimes...but i think its a matter of realizing that even if u tried and tried and gave ur all and didnt get what you came in wanting...that doesnt mean u didnt get anything..we sometimes focus so much on the one thing we can't get that we forget to appreciate what else we have gained from our efforts...and maybe if we see that, we could let go more easily and accept that we didn't lose...but that maybe there are bigger, better things out there somewhere...if we just put our efforts into something more worthwhile... “What looks like a loss may be the very event which is subsequently responsible for helping to produce the major achievement of your life” | 
